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Saturday, May 19, 2007 &

Oh mans people its been eons and eons since I've blogged and 'm not even sure people are still reading my blog because honestly I feel that it has been way way to long and people must have gotten fed up or something. This is my first actul entry from my laptop since well I kinda have been to busy to post or anything , I remember the last time I left of at how I don't feel at home with all my classmates , well guess what people I still don't feel at home with them cause like I said the last time we belong to 2 different worlds , However I am now able to tell apart the people that are really interested in getting through the course on one piece and I feel that if I work harder and make the effort to get along with them , I should do just fine for Nursing as a whole. My heart aches so badly today , want to know why ?
I shall be obliging and tell you why , I spent a grand total of $4o on very very seriously ugly looking shoes , I know they are suppsoed to be comfortable nursing shoes and all but do they really have to make them so ugly ? Oh wells , maybe I should update everbody about my life in poly , Its the end of week 5 and in 3 weeks it will be common test week , which means that in the next 2 weeks there are going to be alot of exams and mock quizes to get us ready for the common tests. Whoever said that Nursing was for stupid people are dumbo cause the more I do it the more I realise that the job requires a 200% PASSION and 100% PATIENCE and CONCENTRATION , so when you're needed to do all 3 together at the same time it becomes very stressful and way tiring . Not that stress isn't good but in my case I suspect that I'm under-going too much stress cause I've already been late for 3 weeks which is usually not a very good sign. Just to let people know for curosity sake or for people that care , I actually bothered to join a CCA , two actually , CYA ( Catholic Youth Apstolate) and BP-NP mentoring scheme which is basically giving guidance to young primary school children at risk , IN SHORT I am now somebody's Moral Compass , Don't know if that is a very reassuring fact anot but really I should stop swearing so much least I slip up infornt of my Mentees. I hope I can cope with my work and my extra commitments because all the people in both my CCAs are nice people and I sincerly hope for the opptunity in getting to know them better and working with them. I think i'm almost stressing myself to the point of burnout cause I was so tired yesterday that I actualy feel into deepression and I ended up not going to mass even though I was early for it , I ended up sitting outside with daryl and Mc and just chatting , oh and I was in quite a bad mood so I was a lil rude to aloyious who happens to be the president of CYA when I saw him in church , apparently we were both not in the best of moods , so you can imagine that the discourse did not turn out very veryy well must have ended up agravating him even more , but being with Mc and Daryl helped life my sprirts , there is something about spending time with old friends that make all the problems seem to go away even if it's just for a little while , to be as honest as possible , skipping church yesterday weighs way too much on my concious possibly also because I know I let my parents down cause they trusted me enough to let me go to church alone but I let them down instead . Even though there are a thousand things that I want to say here , I know I Shoulden't and I Can't now cause the Meds are kicking in ( I'm sick again , this is the 2nd time in 2 weeks =( ] , I also need to wake up early so that why I need to go sleep now , so this is it for today . Til the next time my darlings