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Sunday, April 22, 2007 &

Hellos everybody , I know i haven't updated in awhile cause I havent't really had the energy . Poly is turning out to be more tiring than i thought it would be . My nusing textbooks weigh and cost a ton. Its really only the first week of school and I'm already almost dying of fatigue, the assignments are piling in , like hellos as if freshies don't have enough to deal with already , i was almost late very day of the week this week , thankg goodness the syste doesnt kick in until god knows when but still I must try to be early for lessons , another thing about poly is that I miss having my best friend one floor away , now she is likes miles and miles away . Its not that I'm not making friends in poly but sometimes just miss the old times when everybody could hang out with each other whenever they wanted and they din have to cross check with their schedules first , my classmates arent the greatest influence to be aroung I mean not to be mean or anything , there really isnt much positive things to say about them. I already have a feeling that I might not have much in common with the majority of them. To me its like I try my best to get along with them cause I know I have to get along with them or else it is going to be hard to get any work done , the way I see it there are only two ways this thing can pan out either I realise that i was really wrong about them or I just grow further and further apart from them , I know this sounds terrible , but I'm really not comfortable being around some of them because I think I can feel that they are different from me and that's why I don't want to get too close. Maybe as time goes by , I'l learn to treat people better and maybe I'll learn to work and accpect them , respect them. Not being very christlike , I know but I honestly can't help it . Oh and mentioning Christlike ,I joined the CYA cca and the mentorship thing in school , people in the CYA are nice so are the mentoring people but I honestly don't know much of my mentoring thing yet cause well it was just the handing over ceremony , and I did not met that much people but I made friends with the girl that sat next to me , been rather depressed lately , maybe its just the whole stress of being in a hew envroment and not having much familiar faces to ease the burdens hurt. but to look on the bright side of things I'm starting to cultivate a passion for my job in the future , and I feel that I'm going to have a great future , for people that read my blog on a regular basis please don't be mad at me for not updating regularly. I'm really tired and not in the mood to update anymore....till next time pple ... I love you all....