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Monday, February 05, 2007 &

Hellos everybody , I'm fianally well enought to sit up and write , not so exhausted and not so sick anymore , feeling alot better really thanks to the doctor and the medicine........My day went almost like normal , I was up till early this morning because I was just dying to watch Ep 12 of Hana Kimi , for those of you that don't know what it is , its that new drama that going to be airing on channel U on the 15th of FEB at seven the one with Ella from SHE and Wu zun from Farenheit ( I think he is really HOT btw) , haha that day just happens to be Chelmin's birthday too...but me being me snuck peeks on the episode posted by Youtube users , Omg I think I'm addicted to it but it really is one of the few precious things that make me laugh really hard and makes me forget that I am really alone in this world save for my family and a few select friends . Getting better from being sick was also good cause I could fianally go to the pool and swim , felt alot better , I think swimming has become a habit for me because I really feel pangs of guilt and some unease when I can't go ...just as well that it has become a habit because It really is the only thing that keeps me sane because I feel rather disconnected from alot of things as well as people ......but then again I learnt in life that there are many things in it that cannot be helped and that people leave each other all the time , people grow apart all the time and saying goodbye is all but a natural thing in life besides I am a firm believer in the saying that " when god closes one door , another is open for you somewhere ". Speaking of which I said that my day was almost a good day , well the reason it made it not a good day because the day of the release of the O level results has officially been announced , Its this friday the 9th from 2.30 onwards so from now until the o level results come out I have a feeling that i'm going to be a little highly strung till i get my results which i hope turns out well....As chel says I really shoulden't be worrying about the results cause the results have been stored at MOE for like almost a month when the anxiety hadn't kicked in yet so well I guess thats that ....As I was sitting in church yesterday something the priest said struck me , its nothing that i havent heard before but it just struck me deeply yesterday . So I shall leave you with the words that got me pondering , till the next post when I am hopefully less agitated.

" what does it profit a man to gain the whole world , but lose his soul "