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Saturday, September 08, 2007 &

Hey babes and Hunks , I know its been a long long time since I updated this blog , its a wonder how any of you still remember who I am or still remember that the blog exisits . Lately I've been pretty busy with school and all the stuff that going on in my life which doesn't really seem like much. It was the test season and everybody was really really busy , then it was the exam season that had everybody on tetherhooks and everybody was just hanging on for dear life and after what seemed like a million and one years school was fianally out , then well we started having our six weeks of break which I happen to be on but I get a shorted break then most on account that I start attachment soon , but I'm actually really exicited about the attachment and that reminds me that I have to get cracking soon so that I have myself all prepared to start work for real and get a taste of hospital life again . Don't get me wrong I don't think that this attachment is going to be as easy as the last and I feel that its going to take alot more energy out of me since I will be working longer hours than usual but I don't mind as long as I have an opptunity to learn and widen my own learning curve . The longer I study nursing , the longer the profession grows on you and I find that I have devloped certain habits professionally that I can't seem to throw away when I'm not in class and not at work . Sometimes I feel that I have become less feeling as a person and things that used to have a huge impact on me before , start to weight less and less on my mind and things that I used to think as important just seem trivial compared to the strength and miracle of Human life . I know that I am less excitable then before , although I'm looking forward to the attachment , I dread the feeling that I will return drained everyday with really nobody to turn to for support save a few people who I now know will always be a constant in my life and not flit in and out of my life as they please , sometimes I feel that I'm as dispensable as the next person , but I admit that sometimes I feel that I'n not as important but then there are other times I feel like the most loved persons in this world so its just realy hard to tell. I guess over my cross over journey into poly I have lost a few friends and I have gained a few friends Unwittingly but it doesn't mean that I'll forget the people who stood by me when I was down. Speaking of Old friends, we had a 2 charity gathering on wed and its was barrels of fun , even though there was only 10 people , theres realy something about seeing people that you used to go to school with and seeing Mr Raj again also made me smile , theres something about that man that's special , he is one of those people that will walk into your life , leave an impression that will follow you for the rest of your life , he told jokes and he made us laugh like he used to before , chel once said that he was the glue that kept us close and I think that it still applies to him now even after so long when we cease to only be teacher and student , though I feel horrible that he paid for the entire meal , I don't like that he insisted on paying but it was fun talking to him and teasing him , though I think I touched o n a aw spot , I being the complete idiot didn't notice that he had already broken up with his girlfriend so now ex girlfriend asked when they were getting married , thank goodness he didn't seem too pissed. I took a photo with him and chel which is shown above , I haven't reay been out much this sem break cause well I haven't really been in the mood to do much and I haven't really wanted to be around people I just wanted an enviorment in which I could de stress in peace and I aplogise if I offeneded anyone by rejecting their outing offers, but I have been so stressed up lately and I dread the idea of going back to school and facing all those people again , but I know what I must do and I will do it no matter what it takes. I have been out of the house a couple of times this break though to have dinner with Huilin and go out with Jabez who I mut aplogise to for being mean to that day when we went out for dinner I'm so sorry I was going through PMS and I didn't mean to make him feel bad and I'm glad you took the time out to go out with me and cheer me up and to Huilin its always wonderful to have dinner with you and sit on the deck of Pacific coffee and Just have drinks with you and chat. Its really late now and I probbably should be in bed , so on a fianal note I want to thank people who stil visit and please leave me a tag thanks to let me know you guys are stll reading , Oh and since I've become a lil cam whore I shall attach alot of pictures above to let you guys know that I'm still doing fine. So till the next entry people , remeber that I love you all and I'm always going to be here, Nights and sweet dreams .

With Love ,
Pet

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Monday, June 18, 2007 &

Heys people , today was my birthday and I'm going to spend the remaining hour or so blogging about it. Today was a nice I guess , I went to S.P for mass in the morning so that we could all pray for our exam results among other stuff and for the S.P people that wisdom to do all their papers cause they have all their papers carefully and properly and needless to say for us , pray with all sincerity that we did reasonably well for our papers. Well mass was great really , too bad not everybody turned up and oh what happened during mass was uber funny cause Father Chong asked aloy( can't spell his full name) aka the president of CYA to finish up the communal wine cause I think he poured too much or something and so aloy being the nice nice person he is finished the good port wine that we use for communion in no more than 3 gulps but oh guess what happened after that , in less than a span of 15 mins after he drank the wine his face became as red as ever and boy oh boy did he look drunk. we sure had alot of fun teasing him and his red face but he was a great sport about it all , haha pity I had to leave early tho cause well Huilin and su eng were well really hungry so I had to rush down there , but the CYA people were really realy nice about it . Oh and another person that was really really accomodating was lowell , how could anybody forget him , he put up will all the changes in the lunch schedule and really really tried his best to come as fast as he could when we changed the schedule for lunch today , oh ang guess what the silly boy left his Ez link card while he was topping up his funds and only realised it when he needed to flash his student card when we were going to pay the bill at Pizza hut but then again he was really really lucky when he found it again in the excat same slot at the excat same place where he left it . Well lunch with Huilin , su eng and Lowell was really really fun cause we took turns at jibing Lowell , I think I need to start saving up for huilin's present cause well she and Su Eng shared and gave me a very very prettified braclelet that is supposed to be one of its kind , its Pink with sakuras and to me its very very beautiful. After lunch Lowell left us girls to do all our gal stuf and shopping , Huilin was supposed to get a bag but we walked around P.S the whole aftnn and guess what we did not find anything that was suited to her taste and both me and Su eng got aches and pains at different parts of the body , mine was at the feet cause well silly me again , cause well I choose a very inapproriate day to break in my new pair of shoes , ended up with blisters and very swolen feet but it was nice to hang out wiht those too good shopping buddies which leads me to my longing thoughts about a dress that I saw at outfitter girls , it was sheer and V necked at both ends and on sale and took all my will power to resist buying it. I came home and napped for awhile cause I was so so tired which caused me to be late for my dinner with Jabz at Amk central , we had Sub way and chatted and he also gave me the most adprable bday present , cutie pie bear that says happy Birthday from me to you, it wasreally nice of himt o take out the time to accompany me for my birthday. Later , cause my dad was so nice and at my request bought me the most goegoeus birthday cake, It was chocolate and had the best decorations ever , I Love my DAD cause he always tries to give me the best , we went to my grandmother's house to cut the cake but that didn't go so well but I collected red packets and I spent time with my grandmother cause she is Just the best and I miss spending time with her ona regular basis and she was quite upset that she forgot to prepare anything for my bday, but I don't mind I just want her to be well and happy . I also want to thank my unclefor specially taking the time to call and wish me happy birthday. The only things I regret today is that my younger brother cannot be here to ceebrate with me cause he is at camp and I hope that he is alright that I worry for that boy all the time and that Chel coulden't celebrate my birthday with me cause of her busy schedule but no worries that we will celebrate when they have more time or get back . On a final note , I want to thank all the people that took al the time to message me at the stroke of midnight and the we hours of the morning yesterday and early in the morning esp Ben, Yihao and mcm cause you guys are the best and HUILIN sweety ure super cause yu were the first to message me and wish me in advance , I LOVE U ALL and chel thanks for the shoutout...thanks people..tata

Saturday, June 09, 2007 &

Hey people , long time no chat , for people that still bother to check back to my blog every once in awhile ,thanks for showing that you care enough to check well even though you know that the chances of my having updated is close to zero. I've been rather busy this entire half a month , between the various projects that were due and the preparation for the common test I was too busy to even take a breather , so to all the people there that assume that poly people are very very free and that nurses are dumb and don't have much studying to do please revise your thinking . I've been way too busy tearing my hair out trying to prepare for common test , I don't think I've ever been so hardworking in my life , throughout this entire 2 weeks i believe that I have done more than a 100 hours of studying just to prepare for commons , I dread to think what it would be like when I actually have to prepare for an exam , maybe I should try to start preparing for the exam earlier that sort of stuff saves me from trying to cram up all in the infomation in the short time span they give us to study. Speaking of studying , I need to give a big shoutout to lowell cause he needs a lil encouragement cause the LAZY ASS thinks that this is still secondary school and that he can pass with one eye closed but I feel that I need to keep reminding him that he already in pre-u and that he needs to work hard if he wants to dream of doing anything good in the future. Poly seems to be getting better for me , atleast I'm not so much of a stranger to everybody in my class , I've sorta found friends in the class and we hang out together , but I feel really blessed cause even though I've been able to make new friends , I haven't forgotten the old ones , ever since going to poly me and chel have been spending good quality time which is just great cause even though I've made new friends , its not the same as being around chel and everybody else that has known me for almost a decade , cause around them I'm comfortable and I don't need to be anything other than myself and they will still accpect me for who I am weirdness and all. I miss secondary school days sometimes mainly cause I miss having Chel a flight of stairs down from me , I miss having Huilin being in the class next to me and swapping gossip with her over recess and having coffee with her ( but luckily we still keep in contact , going out with her soon xp ). Poly has changed me in alot of ways too , I've become a little more confident I think , more enthu about alot more stuff , still not to fond of camps but I'm working one it , haha ...well recently I volunteered to become a bay ambassador which is just another pretty name for Usher but altleast I get to usher the VIPS XDDD.....I bet all of you just have your mouths hanging out in wide open shock cause the pet you knew would never voluntarily put herself in such a position. Well I know I can manage , I haven't really been having alot of CCAs Cause well we were not able to have much activities cause well really its been the secondary and Primary school holidays so there hasnt really been much mentoring or rather I think we have to mentor the kids during Non term time which I find abit sad but oh well and as for CYA we're stopped meeting cause well it was near the commons but we will prolly start again after school starts. I'm going to be on attachment soon again but I promise that I shall try to update as much cause well I'm having me break but even so I don't think that I can update everyday cause well I'll still have to go back to school for project meetings and stuff like that PLUS PLUS its my bday month and I get to become 17 officially on the 18th of June so everybody say YAY for me . Today I attended the most georgeous wedding even though it wasnt the most organised , it was my cousin wedding , He and his new wife have been together for 18 yrs now , one would shudder to think at how many trials and tribulations that they have gone through all the years, yet I think its so beautiful when 2 people can come together and tie the knot and promise to have to and to love and have each other for the rest of their life, she was the glowing bride and he was every bit the charming groom, oh and the other upside of going to the wedding for me was that I got to see very very hot fighter pilots , but seriously after attending the ceremony , I started to wonder if I will ever find a guy that wll treasure me as much as my cousin treasures hid wife , as much as my grandfather cherished my granmum even though he never showed it that much, as much as my dad treasures my mum , wisdom assures me that I will and that I just have to trust in god . I really do need a special someone to come along and show me that I am special and important to him though I doubt I will meetanybody that way anytime soon. I think that this has been a long enough post so I shall let everybody off and kill you by making hte post any longer. With hugs and kisses pet

Saturday, May 19, 2007 &

Oh mans people its been eons and eons since I've blogged and 'm not even sure people are still reading my blog because honestly I feel that it has been way way to long and people must have gotten fed up or something. This is my first actul entry from my laptop since well I kinda have been to busy to post or anything , I remember the last time I left of at how I don't feel at home with all my classmates , well guess what people I still don't feel at home with them cause like I said the last time we belong to 2 different worlds , However I am now able to tell apart the people that are really interested in getting through the course on one piece and I feel that if I work harder and make the effort to get along with them , I should do just fine for Nursing as a whole. My heart aches so badly today , want to know why ?
I shall be obliging and tell you why , I spent a grand total of $4o on very very seriously ugly looking shoes , I know they are suppsoed to be comfortable nursing shoes and all but do they really have to make them so ugly ? Oh wells , maybe I should update everbody about my life in poly , Its the end of week 5 and in 3 weeks it will be common test week , which means that in the next 2 weeks there are going to be alot of exams and mock quizes to get us ready for the common tests. Whoever said that Nursing was for stupid people are dumbo cause the more I do it the more I realise that the job requires a 200% PASSION and 100% PATIENCE and CONCENTRATION , so when you're needed to do all 3 together at the same time it becomes very stressful and way tiring . Not that stress isn't good but in my case I suspect that I'm under-going too much stress cause I've already been late for 3 weeks which is usually not a very good sign. Just to let people know for curosity sake or for people that care , I actually bothered to join a CCA , two actually , CYA ( Catholic Youth Apstolate) and BP-NP mentoring scheme which is basically giving guidance to young primary school children at risk , IN SHORT I am now somebody's Moral Compass , Don't know if that is a very reassuring fact anot but really I should stop swearing so much least I slip up infornt of my Mentees. I hope I can cope with my work and my extra commitments because all the people in both my CCAs are nice people and I sincerly hope for the opptunity in getting to know them better and working with them. I think i'm almost stressing myself to the point of burnout cause I was so tired yesterday that I actualy feel into deepression and I ended up not going to mass even though I was early for it , I ended up sitting outside with daryl and Mc and just chatting , oh and I was in quite a bad mood so I was a lil rude to aloyious who happens to be the president of CYA when I saw him in church , apparently we were both not in the best of moods , so you can imagine that the discourse did not turn out very veryy well must have ended up agravating him even more , but being with Mc and Daryl helped life my sprirts , there is something about spending time with old friends that make all the problems seem to go away even if it's just for a little while , to be as honest as possible , skipping church yesterday weighs way too much on my concious possibly also because I know I let my parents down cause they trusted me enough to let me go to church alone but I let them down instead . Even though there are a thousand things that I want to say here , I know I Shoulden't and I Can't now cause the Meds are kicking in ( I'm sick again , this is the 2nd time in 2 weeks =( ] , I also need to wake up early so that why I need to go sleep now , so this is it for today . Til the next time my darlings

Sunday, April 22, 2007 &

Hellos everybody , I know i haven't updated in awhile cause I havent't really had the energy . Poly is turning out to be more tiring than i thought it would be . My nusing textbooks weigh and cost a ton. Its really only the first week of school and I'm already almost dying of fatigue, the assignments are piling in , like hellos as if freshies don't have enough to deal with already , i was almost late very day of the week this week , thankg goodness the syste doesnt kick in until god knows when but still I must try to be early for lessons , another thing about poly is that I miss having my best friend one floor away , now she is likes miles and miles away . Its not that I'm not making friends in poly but sometimes just miss the old times when everybody could hang out with each other whenever they wanted and they din have to cross check with their schedules first , my classmates arent the greatest influence to be aroung I mean not to be mean or anything , there really isnt much positive things to say about them. I already have a feeling that I might not have much in common with the majority of them. To me its like I try my best to get along with them cause I know I have to get along with them or else it is going to be hard to get any work done , the way I see it there are only two ways this thing can pan out either I realise that i was really wrong about them or I just grow further and further apart from them , I know this sounds terrible , but I'm really not comfortable being around some of them because I think I can feel that they are different from me and that's why I don't want to get too close. Maybe as time goes by , I'l learn to treat people better and maybe I'll learn to work and accpect them , respect them. Not being very christlike , I know but I honestly can't help it . Oh and mentioning Christlike ,I joined the CYA cca and the mentorship thing in school , people in the CYA are nice so are the mentoring people but I honestly don't know much of my mentoring thing yet cause well it was just the handing over ceremony , and I did not met that much people but I made friends with the girl that sat next to me , been rather depressed lately , maybe its just the whole stress of being in a hew envroment and not having much familiar faces to ease the burdens hurt. but to look on the bright side of things I'm starting to cultivate a passion for my job in the future , and I feel that I'm going to have a great future , for people that read my blog on a regular basis please don't be mad at me for not updating regularly. I'm really tired and not in the mood to update anymore....till next time pple ... I love you all....

Saturday, April 07, 2007 &

Hey people , whats up...I know I haven't been updating in a long long time , well have a couple of good reasons for it tho , I mean who can stand to post about the mundane daily rituals that one goes through but you guys have to forgive me cause now i'm blogging to make it up to all you people and tell you whats been up in my life. I was at camp from Monday to Thursday this week and its one of the few camps that I really really enjoyed and I really did meet alot of people that were super nice and super great people, too bad i don't have pictures cause I'm still waiting on someone to send them to me , thats the prob with not having your own camera , you have to rely on people... After camp i realised how much attending this camp has made me see what a nice person I really am ( Sounds abit BHB I know ). Well I had a great group really , the guys were great and really enthu about everything , ok maybe not everything , one the second day of camp we played dirty games , the first game being butter hill , which required abit of stripping on the guy's part , and I must say they were all qute GUNG about it , oh plus i saw somebody with a really nice pair of abs but I shan't name him online in case I embarass him. Even though I had so much fun at camp , there was still a part of me that missed home and now I definately appreciate being able to bathe alone , haha when we were at camp cause there was so many girls and only 10 cubicles , all the girls had to bathe in groups of 3 to 5. It was quite embarassing to strip down at first in front of total strangers but in the end really we all wanted to be clean more than anything else after a hard day of activities , so we just stripped and showered , showering was really like a maraton cause they GLs keep knocking on the bathroom door to make people come out faster even tho theres so many of us and really you just got in..... I think the boys on the otherhand got it easier even though they had to bathe in pairs atleast there was nobody hounding up their asses and banging on doors. I also found out that PETRINA ANITA ANTHONY is a BIG BIG FRAIDY CAT , haha she screamed the loudest when she got scared during her nightwalk , though most of the walk wasnt all that scary and all the side effects were kinda obvious but went she saw two hooded figures comming at her in a darkened toilet even though she knew they were human she still screamed till her lungs almost gave way... see I'm not all that fearless. OH and they fed us way too much during camp , I threw away most of my food for lunch and dinner and I was still quite full jus on breakfast and supper , it really scary , hopefully I lost weight too but like I said I had very nice guy grp mates who helped me finish my food on occasion but most of the time I threw it away . This was kinda the first camp in many many camps that I wass so enthu about , one of the few where I really felt bonded to the people , I don't know if they felt the same about me but I liked them all well most of them , I was so enthu that I cheered myself into having a sore throat and a cough and a lil fever but I felt all this was super worth it , I met so many people and learnt and did so many things that I thought a fat girl like me wouldn't do and I would do these things again in a heartbeat like dacing like crazy on camp Hopnite and dacing with a total and complete stranger for some mass dance but Like I reiterate IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT . Oh and I totally heart Wisdom cause he was no nice and gave me cap when I said it was really really hot. total nice guys.. I shall Leave you with a pic for Dago 2... Sayonara